Tuesday, January 18, 2022

frosty urban art

Art exhibitions usually do not touch me. 

Unless they immerse me completely in the atmosphere of an unknown world. Like an urban art exhibition in an abandoned, dilapidated  amusement park, in the heart of an arctic winter.

Lights flicker as I stumble through concrete tunnels, shivering with cold. Behind spotlights illuminating the splashy colours of graffiti all over crumbling walls, I glimpse sagging roof beams and broken electrical wiring. Cheerful, rusting signposts still advertise amusement rides. Over the dusty shelves of an old shooting gallery, an artist has made a statement by hanging toy bunnies by their necks from the ceiling. 

There are mouse droppings, broken glass and snow that has drifted in. And unexpectedly, small rooms full of pink fluff and fairy lights.

In the Haunted House, everything gleams under black light in the winding tunnels - stars and planets, skeleton hands and spiders, Oriental art and wrinkled posters shouting "Cancel Commercial Christmas".

Outside, narrow paths wind through thick snow from one building to another, every wall covered in exuberant graffiti artwork. An icy wind whistles between creaking doors and broken windows, the midwinter sunset twisting shadows. 

It is minus ten degrees Celsius and my fingers go numb when I take off my mittens to take pictures. It is glorious.

Sunday, January 09, 2022

comfort songs, part two

Little bit of love
When you're down and out, your heart is breaking
Little bit of love
And with every single smile you're faking it
Little bit of love

I got a little bit of love

(JP Cooper: Little Bit Of Love) 

Saturday, January 08, 2022

comfort songs

Then you came my way on a winter's day
Shouted loudly come out and play
Can't you tell I've got news for you
Sun is shining and so are you

And we're gonna be alright, dry your tears and hold tight

(Axwell & Ingrosso: Sun Is Shining)

Tuesday, January 04, 2022

2021: the year of seven red stars on the horizon

 * New Year in a quiet, pandemic-strangled world. Good company, fortune-telling, sparklers and home-brewed strawberry wine.

* New Year resolution: read more non-fiction books on history, science and psychology. (Failed.)

* Study circle on theology, society, politics, cultural movements and general trends through history, in a chilly church attic.

* "If your car was human it would be in a psychiatric hospital by now," said the guy who tried to fix it. He fixed it in the end, without quite knowing how. (Possibly through reverse psychology.)

* Exploration of the family tree together with a third cousin once removed ... or something (a.k.a. the friend who's always sworn we're not related despite sharing a surname).

* Cold, sunny February days with sunbathing and coffee on the balcony, bread-baking over open fire in a silent forest, walking for miles on frozen seas.

* Office news: an office puppy and a new desk overlooking a forest that has wolves and deer in it.

* Another lockdown, meaning lots of take-away lunches and squeezing in only six participants at my mother's birthday party. 


 * Colour Conference live online, with participants from 111 nations. I think I saw God.

* Weekend in Tampere with vintage cognac and a lovely motorcycle trip around icy lakes.

* Expert knowledge diploma in personal protective equipment.

* Hike around Kyrkösjärvi lake, feasting on cold pizza and hot coffee at a swampy lake with the sun and the birds.

* Three-day birthday celebration: hotdogs over open fire in a chilly sunset with friends, chocolate meatballs with other friends and a unicorn, luxury chocolate cake with family.

* "Vappen" spring celebration with mojito and a friend - in sun and snow, hence with sunglasses and woollen mitts.

* Barbecue in a fire pit under a mild May sun. Came home with two gargoyles.

* Loss of a warden tree (the linden outside my window). Instead, seven new red stars were lit on the horizon seen from my summer place (wind turbines).


* Boat trip halfway across the sea to Sweden on the first day of summer. Exploring a sun-kissed island, the sea smooth as a mirror, and felt that life couldn't possibly be any better.

* Hikes in the woods of Vörå and Pensala, getting hopelessly lost among the mosquitos and pondering the cruelties of war.

* Midsummer with the Midsummer People, barbecue, strawberries, croquet, deep talks and planting a clematis.

* Boat trip to the nearest island. Hot sun, dark-roast coffee and chocolate, swimming among a million tiny flowers.

* Summer with rosé wine in gardens, pizza and travel plans, grilled perch on sunny patios, ice-cold Russian winter movies in bed when it's too hot to sleep.

* Holiday in one of my favourite cities, reveling in good memories and walking too much.

* Summer morning cycling, excellent new habit that couldn't last.

* Alternative and delicious lunch break: greasy burgers among ancient ruins, then a museum and coffee.

* American visitors and fascinating cultural discussions on a sunset beach.

* Road trip to Kalajoki, Raahe, Kajaani, Iisalmi with friend. We sang our way through a landscape dotted with wind turbines, watched a beachvolley tournament among hot sand dunes, chatted to Germans, found an unexpected piece of Russia.

* One-day road trip to Bergö with mother, a ferry ride and homemade icecream.

* Motorcycle gang invasion in my quiet summer paradise. I treated them to tacos and a game of volleyball.

* Walk along an endless beach to an island but didn't find the ancient labyrinth I was promised.

* Motorcycle ride with hundreds of others, just to have a coffee.

* Park bench moment with another misfit, singing hymns out loud.

* Memorable evening in the wilderness with my sister, a movie and a starry sky.

* End of my fifteen-year-long mission as interpretation coordinator in church.

* Trip to Tampere again, with hardships when the car broke down. City life, MacGyver, a church service and a lovely garden with free apples.

* The year's only journey abroad: to the Swedish coast by ferry, in a storm. We looked at the foreign country through the rain-lashed windows as we feasted on seafood.

* Walk across a swamp. Happened upon a childhood friend not seen for years, then experimented with driving a quad bike.

* Weekend in Helsinki with second-hand shopping, Sherlock Holmes on stage, sightseeing by tram.

* The theatre again, for the second time in a week since I was feeling pandemic-deprived. Exquisite monologue by a young girl.

* Poodle-sitting weekend. Poodle getting old and deaf.

* Hair colour adjustment towards the colour of autumn fields.

* Stamp collection analysis. (Embarrassed to admit I have a stamp collection.).

* Three concerts in three December weeks, starved for music and old songs in Latin. With covid certificates and face masks.

* Christmas party with gourmet food, a wine glass that never ran dry and discussions about the possible advantages of gold teeth.

* Candle-making with office people and a cute collie.

* Adventurous Christmas in a blizzard of epic proportions, seriously doubting I would ever make it to Christmas dinner.

* First Christmas night and Christmas Day ever in complete solitude.

* Post-Christmas party with old friends and a man I thought I had stopped loving.

* New Year's eve with covid testing and quarantine.

General phenomena: Pandemic restrictions coming and going, face masks and vaccinations, looking after mother, lots of writing and reading and Netflix, tired summer and lazy autumn, middle-aged feelings.

Couldn't do (for at least half of the year): travelling, plays and concerts, church services except online, volleyball and pilates. But during the times that I could: 4 museums, 3 concerts, 2 plays.

New ideas: see all the castles in Finland and beyond, learn to braid my hair properly, learn to cook lentil stew, buy a SUP board.

Weird weather phenomena: ice storm (that I had to drive in, after peeling a thick ice shell off my car), snow storm with pink Sahara sand in it, thunder and lightning in snowy December.