I have never been inside a whirlwind but I know what it's like.
It must be like this, the way my emotions are being tossed around. After a long while, exhaustion wins out and my mood is taking a steep dive that knows no bottom.
Three steps to break the fall: 1) eat, 2) eat chocolate, 3) drink - coffee, or if all else fails, wine.
Hate to admit that last bit because it sounds so alcoholic and I really wouldn't recommend it to anybody else but myself. But it's a fact. A glass of white breaks the back of that obsession with being in control and the panic in realising that I'm not.
I just need a break from myself. I would like to leave the world for a while and then come back and start over.
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I can only guess (erroneously, as usual) at the nature of the whirlwind that you are in.
Y'know, lonely people have a keener sight, albeit in a greyer world. I suppose you, like so many others would like a world of constant color, than brief flashes of joy. The greatest folly, I believe, is to think that you are alone in your loneliness. As for the wine, weel, there have been days when I brushed my teeth for half-an-hour so my folks wouldn't throw me out when I presented my face at the front door at some ungodly hour. Gave me respite for some moments, but returned with sudden intensity.
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